I must admit on here that I feel guilty not speaking to my father, even though he isnt speaking to me for ridiculous reasons. I feel guilty as I was programmed to feel guilty when I was child. I don’t know how to not feel guilty. It is still so ingrained in me but I am working on it.
He chose his money over his own flesh and blood. It still hurts.What I know now however, is that it doesnt really matter anymore what he does or doesn’t do. I still love him and always will. He is my Dad. I will not let him hurt me anymore though. I have already decided I am sticking to ‘no contact’ even if one day he does try to speak to me.
I am still grieving my loss after his suicide attempt and it’s a hurt that can’t be put into words..
Ever since I joined a couple of support groups for my anxiety awhile back and now for my recovery from trauma, narcissistic abuse and others, I have found it immensely helpful.
What I didn’t realise was how healing it has been for me to have this blog and my facebook support page. I have not only shared my feelings & struggles, but also supported others. This is so valuable! People are made to reach out and connect with others and it is so lovely to see many others do the same. This community of bloggers who share posts about mental health and their own struggles, reduces the stigma and provides incredible validation.
Thank you to all my followers, those I follow and the many many other blogs I haven’t even discovered yet.
❤ to you all
I composed this list of useful videos, which I have found very informative and useful over the last few years. I hope to start doing my very own youtube videos very soon as well but for now, maybe you will also find these helpful!