Throughout the many traumatic events in my life, the dreams I seem to have had in constant repetition, are the ones that reveal my most painful traumas.
I am happily married now to a lovely, caring man and nevertheless my past experiences of abandonment & being cheated on still haunt me. My husband has never ever uttered those dreaded words of ‘I will leave you’ or i’m not happy with you’, yet I still have dreams where he cheats on me, ignores me and doesnt’talk to me. It is actually more common for me to say ‘just go then’ after an argument, because I actually still have this innate belief that I am not worth loving and that he will eventually leave me, like everyone else did in my life. When all you have known is abandonment in your family and then you have also had ex partners that cheated on you and abused you, then that is all you expect..
Sometimes, if I haven’t been intimate with my husband within the average time-frame that we usually have sex, my brain is instantly triggered and the nightmares of him cheating start. It is such an unfair thing for me to have to re-live so often and it is also incredibly unfair towards my husband as he has done nothing but show me his love and commitment. Luckily, things always go better than I anticipate in my marriage, as we are able to talk openly about everything that is on our mind.
Do you pay attention to your repetitive dreams? Do you ever consider discussing the content of your dreams with a therapist?